I Need A Change...

Ever have that feeling that something in your life needs to change, but you just don't know what? Yeah... I am currently going through that.

As a whole I am loving life and living it to the fullest, but in some aspect I am lacking.

Something is missing.

Some spark.

Some passion.

Do I have any idea what it is right now?

Nope.

So how do I figure out what the change that needs to be made is?

I'm not sure.

I think I need to really sit down with myself and see what is my life is causing me the most stress, most unhappiness, most headaches and drop it.

Okay maybe not drop that activity/job completely, but stop allowing it to rule my thoughts or dreams or mind.

If I don't try new activities, jobs or paths I will never know what I am truly meant to do ... or be.

Right?

I think so.

Since I was little I thought I knew what I wanted to do. I always dreamed of being a Statistician for the Boston Red Sox. It's the reason I was a Math Major in college. But once I started working for the Red Sox in 2004, I learned that job no longer existed.

Ouch!

But I kept trying.

I found my way in baseball for 8 years and loved it. The hours were tough, but the relationships I made with players, front office personnel and media were unmatched, the travel was exciting and the job itself (PR) was something I loved.

In January 2012, we made the decision to leave Chicago and move to Boston.

I left baseball.

It was tough.

But, I cannot dwell.

I need to celebrate the time I have with my wife. She hated being a "baseball wife."

Now I have more time with friends and family than I have had since probably 2003.

I love being a part of people's weight loss and healthy journeys.

So what do I explore next? I cannot say ... yet.

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Have you dealt with the inner turmoil of making a "big change?"

What A Difference A Day Makes...

I uttered the F word yesterday ... Failure! And releasing the feelings that had such a hold on me was freeing.

Plus It allowed me to truly enjoy one sweet Wednesday!

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I was able to sleep in until 7:30am ... woo!

You don't know the power of a good night of sleep until you have one!

Well, I had a decent one besides a middle of the night nosebleed that my wife helped me take care of - think blood all over my pillow, hand and face. Yeah, I'm apparently a child! That is my second nosebleed in the last six weeks.

But once I recovered from that I slept well. :)

I dropped the wife off at the train and headed to do my normal daily routines - drop off Weight Watchers paperwork in the mail, deposit Weight Watchers money in the ATM, grab my Dunkin Donuts Iced Coffee and hit up Stop & Shop for any necessary produce.

Thankfully I was able to get home and post the blog post before heading out to lead back-to-back Weight Watchers meetings, but thankfully the work day was over by 2pm and I was able to head over to Watertown and visit with my best friend and her daughter Joanna.

 

How could I not smile with that face??

Plus I'm starting her early on the Dunkin' Donuts craze...

Plus, Sarah grabbed a great pic having the Dunkin' cup that says "Joy" since I was feeling nothing but Joy in that moment. That little girl is adorable!! I am an only child so I can't ever be a true aunt, but thankfully Sarah is giving me the honor of being an aunt to Joanna!!

After a wonderful afternoon with Sarah, Joanna and the pup Wyatt, it was time to head home, which with traffic normally takes about 45 minutes. Normally during that time, I'm annoyed and the road rage rises. But, as I sat there, I couldn't help but think about how lucky I am to be able to spend an afternoon with people I love. Focusing on all the blessing really helped the time pass in traffic.

When I got home, I had a couple packages waiting for me --- YAY!!!

The first was my sample Bulu Box.

The second was my first order from PV Body

It's a 15love black shirt (size L) and Performance Sportswear grey pants (size M)!!!

Those pants are definitely in the Top Three most comfiest pants I've ever owned.

After looking through my haul and knocking out some core work...

 80 situps, 15 real pushups, 20 modified pushups, & my plankaday: front forearm plank & reverse plank

I had a lovely low-key evening with the wife and pups ... exactly what I needed.

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This is exactly what I needed.

So thank you all for listening to my rant yesterday. I had to release the feelings that were pushing me down and now I can move on and start to figure out what I need to do next, but for now I will enjoy the special days!

What a day indeed!! :) :)