Three-Year WW-versary - 11/2/12

Wow! It seems like just yesterday I was walking into my first Weight Watchers meeting ... and now I lead 13 of them a week. What a difference three years makes, huh?

Here is my recap from the two year anniversary: check it out!

I reread that post and still carry a lot of those feeling with me today: Pride, Determination and most importantly Happiness.

Since that last post, I hit my Weight Goal, became a Lifetime Weight Watchers member and joined the Weight Watchers family as an employee!

Wow! How things can change!

But I cannot thank Weight Watchers and the online community (Twitter/Facebook/Blogging) enough for helping me get to the point where I am now.

Now comes the hardest part in my opinion: maintenance.

Many people think once you hit your weight goal that everything is rainbows and unicorns ... not the case ... at least for me!

With the career change, I now have much more time to be social with friends so in that regards I feel like a New Member learning to balance a more social life and my healthy lifestyle. Thankfully many of my friends are health conscious and many are Weight Watchers members themselves, which make it a lot easier.

But for me, I am still working on not reverting back to old habits when getting busy or stressed and continuing to work on the mental part of weight loss - nixing the negative.

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Now that I am living a much more active lifestyle, I am also learning how to handle the hungry horrors that can come when putting in 100 miles of running a month, Spinning multiple times a week and starting weight training classes.

But I am happy to have these problems.

I am so thankful for the active lifestyle I now live. I can't imagine going back to the days when I would just sit around for hours on end for days on end. Activity and exercise are a big part of my life now.

In particular - running! I know you guys had no idea, right? :P

Well, what you may not know remember is that when I hit Goal with Weight Watchers to celebrate - instead of buying myself a cut pocketbook or something like that - I signed up for a marathon.

Yup, I was THAT person ... and proud of it!

So now, on the three year anniversary of joining Weight Watchers, I am boarding a plane and heading to Savannah to run that marathon I signed up for that joyous day in January 2012.

And I am scared and nervous, but most of all I am PSYCHED! I'm ready to once again prove to myself that I Am Stronger Than I Think I Am.

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**WINNER ANNOUNCED** Popchips Tortilla Chips Giveaway...

**WINNER ANNOUNCED**

Thanks to Random.org, the winner of the giveaway is #55:

Congrats to Pam Gordon!!

Thanks to everyone who participated and keep your eyes out for the next giveaway… :)

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A-D-D-I-C-T-E-D!

Is all I have to say about my relationship with these delicious chips. ;)

Ever since I got the first taste of Pochips Tortilla Chips on September 11 ... I've been HOOKED! :) :)

But, after finishing the samples I received in the mail, the news hit - they weren't available in Boston until January.

Nooooo ... I got the itch and I wanted more! :P

And then it happened.

I got to Fitbloggin on September  20 and there it was - a Popchips Tortilla Chips booth.

Oh were my eyes playing tricks on me?

Nope.

There for our sampling pleasure for the entire weekend were Popchips Tortilla Chips.

To say I frequented the booth often would be an understatement.

I mean I had to get my fill right?

Then the lovely Popchips ambassadors surprised me with the bigger bag for the ride home to Boston from Baltimore.

YAY!

Can you tell that Ranch is my favorite flavor? ;)

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And now the fun part … the giveawayPopchips has agreed to give one lucky reader of my blog a free Popchips Tortilla Chips prize of their own.

Here is how to enter:

*Follow @IrishEyes1982 and @popchips on Twitter (if you have an account)

*Like Weight Off My Shoulders Blog and Popchips on Facebook (if you have an account)

and

*Comment on the blog below to the following question: “What is your favorite flavor to pop?” 

 

… I will take responses until 3pm ET Wednesday (October 24). The winner will be picked at random … Good luck! :)

 

I'm running the 2013 Boston Marathon with...

... Tedy's Team!! Ahh I cannot tell you all how excited I am to have the chance to be a part of such an amazing group. This amazing organization has a limited number of race bibs for the 2013 Boston Marathon and I am honored enough to have one!

As stated on their website, Tedy's Team is raising money and awareness on behalf of the American Stroke Association:

Tedy asked the American Stroke Association to work with him to create “Tedy’s Team,” a group of runners raising money for the American Stroke Association and training to complete the Boston Marathon® and the Falmouth Road Race.  Their participation supports Tedy Bruschi’s fight against stroke and honors both the survivors and the loved ones lost to America’s No. 4 leading cause of death.

In addition to the dollars being raised, an equally important issue for Tedy's Team is the increase in awareness of stroke and recognition of its warning signs. Tedy’s Team is striving to reach as many people as possible in its message of recognizing the warning signs and acting appropriate when seeing them -- calling 9-1-1 immediately.

I have a strong personal connection to strokes as both of my grandparents are stroke survivors as well as my wife's father.

So I am looking forward to doing anything I can to help with this fight.

Tedy's Team requires each participant raise $5,000 in order to take part in the 2013 Boston Marathon.

I already have $1,000 raised through The Dani Holmes-Kirk 1st Annual 30th Birthday Run-Walk Ramble and will start additional fundraising next week ... so be ready for that! ;)

I cannot wait to meet the team in mid-November and begin training runs shortly after that!

We are 180 days away from the Boston Marathon...

As a born and raised Bostonian, I am truly looking forward to taking part in this historical run. My dad ran the 100th Boston Marathon and now I am continuing the tradition.

That means a lot to me, but more than that - I am helping a worthy cause that holds a dear place in my heart.

Despite being just 17 days out from the Rock 'n' Roll Savannah Full Marathon, I am already thinking about the fun I will have working with and training with Tedy's Team over the next 5-plus months.

I'm ready for one wild ride... :)

Dear Social Media...

Dear Social Media, I don't know how to say this so I thought I would write you a quick note. I've been trying to gather my feelings for you, but didn't quite know how to really approach you on the subject. So I figured I might as well just put myself out there.

So here goes nothing.

Social Media ... I Love You.

Okay, there I said it!

I 100% with my whole heart love you and all that you offer:

I love OkCupid.com.

I love Wordpress.

I love Twitter.

I love Facebook.

I love Tumblr.

I love Pinterest.

I love Instagram.

I like Google+.

I even have a small place in my heart that still likes MySpace. (not sure why, but it does)

So this isn't getting awkward is it?

Good.

I want to simply Thank You for all you have done for me through all of these avenues.

You want examples? Sure, I have plenty.

**OkCupid.com gave me my wife for who I would be lost without!

**Wordpress.com, you have bestowed on me a tiny piece of the internet here at Weight Off My Shoulders where I can share my inner thoughts with anyone that wants to read them. Even if no one wants to read them, you allow me the chance to bare my soul and release the negative in a new and more therapeutic way!

**Oh Twitter, where do I begin. I thank you for the endless 24/7 support I have found...

-For opening my world to such awesome groups as #runchat (@therunchat), #Fitfluential (@FitFluential), #SweatPink (@fitapproach), #GirlsGoneSporty (@GirlsGoneSporty), #wwchat/#weightwatchers (@WeightWatchers) and #Fitbloggin (@Fitbloggin).

-For helping me share my life, my ups, my downs, my accomplishments and my faults with people who accept me no matter what and are always there to offer advice, a shoulder to cry on or a new perspective for the situation.

-For connecting me to other Weight Watchers members and Leaders all over the state, the country and the world overall. It is great to share recipes, success stories, scale and non-scale victories and struggles with people reaching for the same goal you are.

-For numerous motivating challenges, especially Brad Gansberg's #7daychip and Dr. Sherry Pagoto's #PlankADay, and allowing me to even start my own: #100ozChallenge.

-And finally, for motivating me to get out of my comfort zone by sharing wicked personal stories, for reminding me that I am worthy of what my life is giving me and that I can put myself out there and survive.

**Dear Facebook, you have taken hours of my day away and I thank you for that. Love, Dani ;) But really, Facebook allows me to share my blog to another group of people who I might not be on Twitter. Also, I know now that if I don't post my workout on the blog's Facebook page, it didn't happen ... right?

**While I still don't know how to totally use you Tumblr, you provide me endless laughs with such things as Dog Shaming and Texts From Dog.

**Pinterest - oh Pinterest - you make me want to eat everything in sight, work out 24/7 and snuggle a bunch of adorable animals all at once. No one has done that to be before. ;)

**Instagram - you allow me to know EXACTLY what my friends are eating at any point in the day. Now I know whose house to go to because I can preview what they would cook me ;) Also, you inspire me to try new workouts, but new work out clothes and attempt all different types of planks! Additionally, you have helped ME perfect the art of the self-portrait either using my phone or the bathroom mirror. I will never look at the bathroom mirror the same way again. Oh and thanks for offering so many glorious filters to choose from - I shall never look pale again! :)

**I got nothin', but love for ya MySpace... you still exist right?

So there it is Social Media, you truly reach every aspect of my life like no one else has before so in one word: Thanks!

Love,

Dani

PS What site will you come up with next for me to get addicted to?

Marathon Training - 20.2 Miles :)

3 Weeks. 21 Days. 500+ Hours. 30,240+ Minutes ... until the Rock 'n' Roll Savannah Marathon. Exactly.

With just three weeks to go, it brought my final 20 mile training run.

I started gearing myself up for it when setting my alarm last night...

That easily pushed me to get outta bed.

Well that and knowing that Sarah was meeting me at the Charles River to run at 7am no matter what.

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But this morning I was ready this morning for redemption!

Two weeks ago, I ventured out for my first 20-mile training run with Sarah - she was going to run the first 10 miles with me then I would knock out the final 10 alone.

Our 10 went off without a hitch, but then technology glitches started messing with my head. My iPhone/Runkeeper/Music DIED 15.19 miles into the 20 mile run.

That took me right out of the running mindset ... it was a total mind F^&k!

I ended up run/walking the final 3ish miles of the 20 mile run and I was wicked disappointed.

I also had to estimate my final time based on the last overall pace my phone caught.

I was happy to complete the task I had set out to do, but I was disappointed with how it ended.

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So today's run would be different. The wife & I worked on my phone to hopefully lengthen its battery length.

(Note: It's been draining a lot faster since the upgrade done last week)

I also made sure to bring my headphones so I wouldn't be using the speaker.

I met Sarah at 7am and we were off.

The plan was for Sarah to join me on the first larger loop of the Charles River, which I thought was about 14 miles.

Either way I would have company for longer this time, which would also help keep me in the game. :)

We were cruising at about a 8:57 min/mile pace after the first 3 miles or so so we started to reign it back in.

Our goal was to run at about a 9:15 min/mile pace since marathon training should be at least a minute per mile slower than your half marathon pace.

And Sunday I ran a 8:16 min/mile pace in the BAA Half.

But, we just kick so much butt that we kept running faster than planned.

The great thing is with Sarah is that she is a much better runner than I am so she knows when to check in and see if we need to slow it down.

Also we had to remember that she was stopping after 13/14 and I had to keep going so as we neared the end of her run (around the 11 mile mark) I could feel her pace speed up - so we made sure to bring it on back. :)

It's easy to get caught up in a run, especially when the weather is a chilly 34 degrees (real feel 24) on a Saturday morning ... in freakin' October!

As we neared Sarah's stopping point, I made the decision to keep on running instead of stopping for a break like I normally do when Sarah's part is over.

I wanted to keep my momentum going as we were at about a 9:05 min/mile pace when we parted ways.

Thankfully I had less than 7 miles to run by myself and I was prepared with a good loop.

I took off and somehow my pace quickened a little - I think I was a little excited to be nearing the end.

I also was able to turn on the music finally - again hoping my battery would make it through the run.

There were not one, but two charity walks happening along the Charles River as well today so I passed the time checking out their signage as well - Suicide Prevention and JDRF.

I finished the second loop and hit my car at 18.2 miles and at that point, I realized my iPhone was almost out of juice.

So I made the executive decision to stop at car, charge the phone enough to make it through the final 2 miles and stretch out the legs a little.

I was wicked happy with my time and pace at the time of my break.

I could feel my legs tensing up so I just prayed the phone would make i through the final 2 miles.

I also made the executive decision to can the music for the final leg as well. I ended up running into the start of the Suicide Prevention Walk, but thankfully I passed the group before they officially started the walk.

And all of a sudden the run was over...

Could you tell I was a tad bit excited?

Unlike two weeks ago, I ran every single step of the way during this run ... and I felt awesome!!

I had a little bit of hip pain that was leading to some knee and foot pain, but nothing that forced me to slow down or stop - PHEW.

I think three weeks from now in Savannah I will be able to break through those final 6 miles!

Bring it Savannah!! :)

Pit o' Insecurity

Being surrounded by such awesomeness this last weekend at Fitbloggin' should've made me feel stronger but it just reopened my pit of insecurities that I've been trying - failing at attempting - to fill with self love for so long. *Why did I deserve to be there?

*How could I have thought I was a good enough blogger to attend this conference?

*Self said: No one knows who you are or reads your blog any way - this will just confirm that.

*Self said: You won't be anyone's Rock Star moment.

*What was I thinking signing up for this conference?

And at one point, I even got up during a session and shared. As soon as I stepped away from the mic, I thought "What the hell was I thinking?" I didn't say what I really wanted to (forgot from nerves) and then thought what I did say was pointless.

Insecure. Fraud. Lame. Unworthy. Poser.

All thoughts that were going through my head during this past weekend.

Inside I just wondered if Roni, the organizer, would tap on my shoulder and tell me to peace on out.

Someone would just walk up to me and find some big zipper that started at my head and went to my feet on the body I have, take it off like a jacket, reveal the 217.4 lb me from 2009 and make me leave.

When someone told me I was awesome, I just wondered if they felt obligated to say that. You know, since I had spent the money to get to the conference I clearly thought I deserved to be there so let me think that to.

I am wicked good at spiraling these emotions out of control rather quickly, huh?

And with all that said, I did feel genuine love. The hugs were needed. The feeling of acceptance - being surrounded by people that have gone through similar life experiences - made me feel normal.

But, I need to continue to work on that whole self acceptance thing and know that I do deserve the opportunities I have right now in life.

I deserve to be happy.

Now if I can just get a shovel and start filling that pit of insecurities from this weekend with - the hugs ... the Love Yous ... and the Pride from stepping, no leaping, out of my own comfort zone - I will be a-okay!

The Dani Ryan Holmes-Kirk 1st Annual 30th Birthday 5k Run-Walk Ramble

For years I have hated my birthday - whatever we did just never met my expectations or something always F-ed it up - so awhile back I decided not to celebrate anymore. The hatred started lifting in 2010 when my now wife proposed to me the night before my birthday...

But this year I could feel it going to be different ... I was turning the Big 3-0 and I wanted to make it special.

Especially since I have made so many amazing changes in my life in the last three years, I wanted to start this new decade in my life in a new, fun and fit way.

So back in May I made a decision to host my own 5k ... yup! I had the thought in my head that it would be wicked cool to host my own 5k,  somehow people confirmed the idea and The Dani Ryan Holmes-Kirk 1st Annual 30th Birthday Run-Walk Ramble was born.

Thanks to my friends at Racemenu - they helped me set up a private registration page that I could share with friends and family.

Once the idea was put out to my friends on Facebook, it was time to get to work.

I started working Social Media to get the logistics in order ...

My hometown of Somerville, MA has a Twitter account so I reached out to them to find out who I contacted to see if I needed any permits/cops for the race course I had set up ... thankfully they were quick to respond and let me know I was in the clear. Phew! Saving money right there!

Next I reached out to my favorite companies to see if they would be interested in donating a raffle prize to the post-race raffle. I was shocked by the openness of the companies - then I remembered I like these companies for a reason. ;)

Raffle sponsors included: Marathon SportsSlumbrew Brewing CompanySnuggbudsSparkly SoulVitalicious and Zensah.

Post-race brews were provided by Samuel Adams Brewing Company and post-race snacks were provided by Popchips.

Race bibs were provided by Go Sport ID.

I can't thank these sponsors enough for how AWESOME they made the race!!!

With all that in place, it was time to work on the Finisher's Medals. One of the main reasons I like a race is based on their race bling (aka race medals). So I know I needed something good for my birthday. Plus, it was helping draw in some virtual runners from all over the world as well.

I found the company Trophy Depot online and set to designing my own medal. I did the whole order online and it was simple and efficient. After placing my order for 55 race medals, I found that more and more people were interested in participating so I called the Customer Service number and the woman on the phone made adding 10 race medals to my order a breeze. I highly recommend this site.

Everyone in my family had jobs as well - the wife did in-race photography, my mom worked the Finish Line and my dad was in charge of the post-race BBQ. I could NOT have made this race happen without their support.

I wanted to have a charity aspect to this race. So I charged each participant - in person or virtual - a $15 fee with that money going to my yet-to-be-named 2013 Boston Marathon charity team. Each charity team for the 2013 Boston Marathon asks runners to raise $4-5k in exchange for a spot in the race - so this would be my first fundraising endeavor of the year.

Thankfully everyone jumped on board.

By Friday, September 14, morning we had all of the raffle prizes and sponsor products in hand - which meant it was time to start getting the necessities for the BBQ itself. Thankfully my mom had the day off from work so she got a lot done in advance and then the wife and I finished up the shopping on Saturday night after we got home from the Warrior Dash - including balloons. :)

But, it all came together, heading to bed Saturday night I felt in control.

On the day of the race/my 30th birthday, we woke up at 7am to start prepping for the race that was starting at 11am.

We enjoyed our Dunkin' Donuts Iced Coffee then headed out on foot to mark off the race course for the runners/walkers.

Thankfully we found cheap  yard decorations at iParty that we could use to keep the signs grounded. :)

That activity took up more time than I thought so as soon as we headed back participants had already started showing up.

We all quickly changed into our racing/working clothes and headed out to our tasks. Since it was really just friends and family attending, people that arrived early chipped in as well. :)

I headed out to the local train stop to pick up our friends traveling in on public transportation.

We got back and went straight into work mode to make sure everything was in the right place.

I wanted to make sure everyone could see the raffle prizes clearly as well as our Sam Adams Beer and Popchips.

Additionally, I needed a clear area for bib pick-up ... this had to feel like a real race as much as possible.

Next thing I knew it was 11am and it was time to kick off the run-walk.

I was psyched. There were 40 people - friends and family - standing in front of my wanting to participate in this 5k. For many of them it was their first race ever. For others, it was even the first time walking 3.1 miles. We had participants of all athletic abilities and all ages - we even had a stroller division. :) But overall, you could feel the love and excitement in the air and I was speechless.

I quickly thanked everyone, went over the course and had my friend George kick off the race.

And like that we were off.

For me, it was my fifth 5k in 5 days and I was shot ... that and my cold was coming in in full effect. Breathing was not going well. I was holding strong in third-fourth place for most of the race, but my friends are too kind and they let me finish 1st. I still think Sarah, Annie and Kim shoulda been 1-2-3. But I thank them for their generosity.

The wife caught some AWESOME in-race photos:

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When each person finished, I personally gave them their Finisher's Medal, which meant a lot to me. We also had water and orange slices available right away.

Once everyone completed the race, we hit the BBQ. My dad  and his assistant chef Nick put out a wonderful spread of chicken, burgers, hot dogs and sausages. It was spectacular ...

... and went to well with the Sam Adams. :)

Yummy!

Everyone enjoyed the BBQ for about 20-30 minutes before it was Raffle time!

People were vying for all of the raffle prizes so it was great to feed off that energy ... how could they not, the prizes were A-freakin-MAZING!!

Once the raffle prizes were done, it was time for me to relax and enjoy the company of my friends and family. While keeping tabs on my virtual runners results of course. :)

Overall, this day was MORE than I could've EVER imagined.

An idea that I thought was wicked farfetched became a reality ... and so many of my friends, family and Social Media crew jumped right on board.

So to everyone that was a part of this special day ... THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

Now it's time to start prepping for...

The Dani Ryan Holmes-Kirk 2nd Annual 30th Birthday Run-Walk Ramble!

Stay tuned!

Warrior Dash - 9/15/12 - 1:06:56.05

To say I was looking forward to my first Warrior Dash on the final day of my 20s is an understatement ... I was PUMPED to FINALLY be able to participate in a Warrior Dash! Especially since this would be my wife's third and I had yet to run in one. Okay okay, I was always working when they were hosted in Illinois so I had a reason behind it, but still. I was ready to finally be a Warrior. I was so wrapped up in planning The Dani Ryan Holmes-Kirk 1st Annual 30th Birthday Run-Walk Ramble that I sort of forgot to plan out the Warrior Dash logistics until the day before the event ... very unlike me.

But thankfully I left myself enough time to buy some running clothes at Old Navy that I didn't mind getting completely covered in mud and dug out an old pair of running shoes that had treated me well.

Then I finally looked up where in New Hampshire the race was held - Gilford - a nice 2 hour ride from Boston. Wooo - NOT.

Eh, we made the best of it.

We had an 11am wave time so we left the house at 7:15 to have enough time to stop at Dunkins and navigate our way up to Gunstock Ski Resort, where the Warrior Dash was being held.

This meant an early Saturday alarm:

But, it was worth it! :)

We had decided that we would run it together no matter what. I mean there was no reason to push through - not like I was looking for a PR at this thing. I was doing it for the experience.

So we made it to the parking lot around 9am. Okay super early for our wave, but we were able to make it into the main parking lot - thus avoiding a ride on what would become a muddy muddy shuttle bus! Score!

The first wave went off at 9 so we were able to see quite a few people start the run...

... and we had enough people around to snap a nice pre-race photo for us!

Once we got there, got our bibs and got our wristbands for post-run beer, we headed back to the car to chill before it was time for our wave. It really was a blessing having the car so close to the race area.

Who doesn't love a timing chip that doubles as a beer token ;)

At 10:20, we headed back over to the party area so I could see what the Finish - and the mud pit - were all about. :P

Seeing the people diving into the mud and walking around with their medals made me want to start ASAP. :)

But alas we had to wait til 11, but we were ready.

We finally made our way over to the Start Line with 20 minutes to go to stretch and get into the corral.

The last 10 minutes seemed to take an hour to pass. I just wanted to start.

Even though the beginning of the race was DIRECTLY up a ski slope. Yes, you read that correctly folks. The beginning of the race is basically a vertical hill.

They counted down, hit the pyrotechnics and we were off!!

I tried to buckle down and push up the hill to the best of my ability. But quickly noticed the wife was walking up.

So I changed my attack plan to run up the hill a little then wait for her to reach that point.

I really shocked myself with how strong my legs felt going up the hill. I thought I would've been completely dead, but the legs felt good and strong! A promising thing while marathon training...

The course was 3.21 miles long and the first 1.5 miles were directly up that ski slope.

At one point we saw the top of the chair lift and I thought "this has to be the top" ... but I was WRONG! It just kept climbing higher and higher.

The course markers were actually in 0.5 mile increments so I only saw them at 0.5, 1.5 and 2.5 - which threw me off.

So I would say our first obstacle was around Mile One: "Storming Normandy" - where we climbed under the barbed wire. Of course the guy in front of me got stuck on the barbed wire and one of the posts ended up falling on his head. Thankfully he was okay, but that definitely helped speed up my time through that spot. :P

Finally - some downhill. I knew there had to be a down at some point.

As we made our way down the first decline, we hit the second obstacle: "Barricade Breakdown" - where you hop over a hip-high wall and then under a hip-high beam - five times. Once you got in the rhythm it was a pretty easy obstacle.

I was more nervous on the downhill than the uphill since that is how I hurt my knee running in Hawaii in November 2011.

So I took it nice and slow because there was NO way I was going to hurt myself during marathon training!!

The third obstacle was labeled: "The trenches" - there is nothing like having your butt in the air for an entire obstacle. Thankfully I had capris and high socks on so I didn't get the cuts on my knees that most other people did at that point.

Before we hit the fourth obstacle, we had to head further down the hill and I noticed a girl bent over with her friend looking like she was in pain. So I grabbed the first EMT I saw and made sure they went to check her out.

Then I hit the "Teetering Traverse" - which freaked me out. It was basically a balance beam about 5 feet off the ground. Usually I am fine with balance beams, but since my back surgery last year I tend to lose my balance a little easier these days so I was having some heart palpitations at this point. Thankfully I just kept it slow and steady and the wife was there at the end to make sure I didn't slip getting down.

Following that obstacle we ran downhill a little longer then took a right that led to - wait for it - an UPHILL!! Yaayyy!! :P

I actually liked it and there was a photog on the uphill so I had to focus on getting a good pose in. Obviously.

Plus as you ran up, there was the next obstacle: "Great Warrior Wall" ... and now we meet my fear. So I saw this wall and immediately freaked out. I got up to the wall, grabbed the rope and tried to pull myself up and immediately thought I couldn't do it so I hopped out of line.

I told myself I could just walk around the obstacle. Then I told myself "Hello no! You did NOT drive 2 hours just to walk around an obstacle." So with the wife on the side, I went back in line to try it again. And as I climbed up, carefully moving my arms up the rope and slowly moving my feet from grip to grip, I thought what if my arms give out and I fall. As that crossed my mind, I realized I was at the top. I, Dani Holmes-Kirk, made it to the top of the wall.

Then I froze.

My batman sock's cape got caught on the rope at the top. Well there you go, I was going to have to live on the top of the wall for the rest of my life.

Thankfully the girl next to me told me to breathe and I slowly freed myself. Got myself over the wall and climbed the ladder down on the other side.

Woah! That was a rush and a moment I will take with me. I was SOOOO proud of myself for facing and conquering a fear!!

Take that wall...

We continued back up the second-largest uphill of the day. But, I made sure to stop and take in the AMAZING views we had of the foliage and Lake from that vantage point. It was breathtaking...

We made it to the top (for the second time) and hit the sixth obstacle (Mile 2.5): "Chaotic Crossover" - which was a horizontal cargo net about 4 feet off the ground. Normally it wouldn't be that bad, but there were a dozen people trying to do the same thing at the same time. :P

Then we got to make the final descent to the Finish Line and hit the seventh obstacle: "Deadman's Drop" - yup another chance for me to freak out. Thank goodness one of the volunteers from the race was by my side talking me through the obstacle. I climbed up without a problem, but when I looked over the top I noticed that it was one bar then just a wall. You were supposed to hang from the bar and just drop down to the ground. Sounds easy, but I was nervous. Thankfully I just took a deep breath and did it. High-fived the volunteer and I was off. :)

As we continued downhill, we were getting excited since we had been looking forward to the next obstacle: "Petrifying Plunge" - but it was a big letdown. :( I thought it would be a giants slip-n-slide, but instead it just soaked your butt as you tried to shuffle down on the big tarp. I wanted more slide, but the water was refreshing. :P

We had just three obstacles to go and the final two were the ones we had been waiting all day for!!

After the Plunge, we hit flat land - FINALLY!! :)

We quickly knocked out the ninth obstacle: "Cargo Climb" and took a little walk before going full strength into the final leg of the run.

We started jogging again and came up with a game plan for the 10th obstacle ... we would karate kick (like she had done the previous year) over the "Warrior Roast." Well we have yet to see the pic, but I think my karate kick was more like throwing my legs in the air so I'm hoping I didn't mess the whole pic up.

But, before I could get upset, it was time for the FINAL obstacle of the day: "Muddy Mayhem" - and it was AWESOME. Since we were kind of in the middle of the pack, the mud pit had time to get deeper than earlier in the day. It felt like quicksand. As I pushed through, I got a nice spray of mud to the right side of my face from the wife, which I quickly had to do right back. :)

We made it through and crossed the Finish Line holding hands ... and picked up our medals.

We finished in 1:06:56.05 - not that that really matters to me at all. :)

We picked up our bag and made sure to snap a few muddy pics before heading to the "shower" area.

The "shower" area consisted of two volunteers spraying people with big fire-type hoses. It felt great, but didn't really get rid of too much mud.

Plus. my Activelink survived the entire trek as well:

Oh wow, it was such a COOL experience that I recommend to everyone.

The coolest thing on the mountain was seeing people of all shapes, sizes, ages, ethnicities and athletic abilities. This truly was a race that you could alter to fit your athletic abilities/desires.

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Will I do this again?

HELL. YEAH.

Well that happened...

I never ever ever ever thought I would be writing this post. This is truly one of the most "out of my comfort zone" type posts I have ever written. This may be one of my hardest posts to actually sit down and write... Not because it holds some huge emotional revelation like other posts I have written...

Not because I have a great weight loss goal or fitness goal I hit...

But because I did something on Friday I never thought would be in my realm of possibility.

 We all know my hatred and DREAD of purchasing bathing suits - I think I have that well documented on here. ;)

Well, something came over me this past week. I started thinking maybe I will go try a different type of bathing suit on. You know before they whisk them all away. Could get a good deal on one for next summer ... so I'm not wearing the same one every time. :P

So I decided it was time to try on a new style.

What? What other type could I possibly handle since I barely rock a tankini?

Bikini

Yes, you people read that right.

I, Dani Holmes-Kirk, had made the decision that I would try on a bikini.

What really led to the decision? I had no idea.

Maybe I was feeling good since I was back on track with my eating and workout habits or maybe I was losing my mind before turning the Big 3-0!

But whatever it was ... I was on a mission.

Plus, I had to do it before I changed my mind.

I didn't tell anyone my game plan in case I chickened out.

My Friday started out on the normal path: home weigh-in, lead the 8am Weight Watchers meeting, drop by the bank, do my swim workout ... then I treated myself to a much-needed hair appt followed by a mani/pedi.

After fully pampering myself for a couple hours ... it was time.

I drove over to Sports Authority and headed to the bathing suit section.

I found a top and bottom combination I liked and headed into the fitting room.

The whole time my heart was beating out of my chest.

Was I really about to go THIS far out of my comfort zone?

Apparently the answer was YES!

I went into the fitting room, locked the door and prepared to see myself in a bikini.

And...

... it wasn't the total disaster I had built up in my head.

I quickly snapped a pic and put my comfortable and comforting Lululemon outfit back on. ;)

I stood in the fitting room for a good 5 minutes just staring in the mirror and smiling.

I had faced one of the biggest demons in my mind ... and won!

I tried it on - survived - and even made the decision to buy the suit.

Now this suit may NEVER see the light of day, but I really bought it as a symbol of how far I have come in the last three years.

That bit of fabric symbolizes that despite the ups and downs throughout the journey ... no matter what I am so far from where I started.

So I bought it.

I sent the pic to a few trusted friends to get their thoughts ... and to shock them that I actually tried it on.

Their feedback calmed me down and reassured me that I was okay to be happy with what I saw in the mirror staring back at me.

Every time I look at that suit, I smile. I am so much stronger, outgoing and fearless than I was three years ago ... and I couldn't be happier.

Now, I work on my core and tightening up some of the excess skin I have from the weight loss so that maybe one day I will wear the bikini ... around the house while I clean.

Okay okay maybe I will wear it in public ... only time will tell.

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But the real question that floated around in my head this weekend as I prepared to write this post was ...

Do I post the pic of me in the bikini across the web or do I keep it buried in my phone and in the phones of a select group of trusted friends?

And in the inner debate ended with this ... this wouldn't be a truly revealing post unless I braved the world and posted the pic.

So friends, here it is:

There it is ... I have now bared not only my inner thoughts, but also my pale mid-section with the world!

Marathon Training - 19 Miles

Yesterday I embarked on my longest training run to date ... 19 miles! And in TRUE New England form the weather called for a 95-100% humidity - Yaayyy!!! <>

But, Sarah and I are strong so we pushed through.

We met at our usual spot on the Charles River at 6:30am and headed out.

She was going to run the first 10 miles of my 19 mile run with me - she is training for our B.A.A. Half Marathon on October 7.

We got into a GREAT groove with a pace that stuck around the 9 min/mile range, which we both felt was a-okay with how humid it was.

About eight miles in, I started to feel a twinge of pain in my right ankle, but I kept stretching it and pushed through.

We stopped at Mile 10 for Sarah to get to her car and for me to refuel.

Sarah is up to speed on running with a blogger - "So are we taking our picture now?" Yes, yes we are. :)

How could we not with how awesome we look. ;)

So I bid farewell to Sarah and headed back out to finish the last 9 miles, but then the ankle pain started leading to some knee pain while led to some hip pain.

Could it really have been in my head? Maybe partly, but I wasn't about to risk it.

I made the executive decision to cut the run at 14 miles and finish it up later that night.

I had to be proud of pushing through the 14 miles in that humidity, but as you can see my pace slowed down in those last 4 miles. So I was proud of myself for listening to my body.

I drove home, showered, ran errands with the wife and decided to try the last 5 miles at about 5pm.

Somehow it seemed even warmier and muggier than the morning run.

But, I felt better. Despite having run 14 miles just hours ago, my legs came out strong in the evening run. I actually kept a sub 8:30 min/mile pace and the ankle was painfree.

I think the bumps and ridges on the Charles River path might have led to the pain in my ankle ... plus it is time to get a new pair of running sneakers! I think I have too many miles on the current pair.

Either way, I did it. I freakin' did it. I completed 19 miles. Wow! The pride I feel cannot even be put into words.

This marathon training has helped me prove to myself over and over again how strong I really am!

 

Technically the 19 miles were all supposed to be done at once, but total mileage is total mileage right?

Running 19-consecutive miles? I'll get there.